complete in Him

"A woman's heart should be so lost in God, that a man has to seek Him to find Her."

it's amazing how God has been able to speak to me through others lately. 

i met with a new friend for a starbucks this morning before joining her for bible study. we sat for over an hour bonding over similar situations and pain. she told me her own trials and how she is slowly recovering. she listened when i needed to talk and offered advice when i needed it. her words of experience through pain were so encouraging and comforting.

she spoke with the wisdom of experience. and spoke the words i needed to hear, but have been avoiding. she told me where she is at in her own life. and although its only a few steps ahead of me, its far enough to teach me, but close enough to walk with me. and be there for me while i slowly heal.

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today i began to realize that no man can complete me but God, and that i can't get my self-worth from a man. its not what God made him out to be. that is a tuff lesson my friends. i have a "harlots heart" and have constantly been searching for someone to validate me. someone to tell me im enough. to tell me im worth it. to show me how important i am. i now realize that person isn't then men im surrounding myself with, (hoping they'll numb my pain) rather its the Man i have been rejecting and pushing away. keeping Him at am arms length, but not any closer. He does not turn His back on me. and once i can accept the pain and the loneliness He has placed in my life for a reason, then i can be complete in Him and find peace. 

woah. 

now tell me that isn't a lot to grasp in one day.

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 pray for me. please pray. allow The Spirit to work in me the way He intended. allow my eyes to see, my ears to hear, and my heart to soften to Him.